Wednesday, October 31, 2007

feet firmly on the grd...

Juz had a talk with tx, talked for abt 20 - 30mins n my calling card ran out of $$. 100rmb ok! stupid shanghai is so exp to call back to sg. well, felt better after talking although we didnt really chat much abt my life cos i am in the house n its nt very convenient to talk, but at least i feel i still hav my 2 feets placed firmly on the ground.

Really need a gd hug from someone... feeling kinda low.. well, muz b pms la... idiot!

Went for a walk with carmen juz now n we talked abt some stuff. now i dunnoe if this is really helping but seems like i got more confused. oh well, maybe i think too much le.. shld juz let nature takes its own course ya?

N work sux super badly.... like superly bad! nv been tat demoralized b4 n i feel so useless... i hate it!

But well, i noe every problem has a solution, so instead of thinking negatively, i shld find a real solution to it n work towards it. cos thinking negatively n being paranoid really doesnt help. to the girl who is in guangxi, if u r reading this, hope this helps. back u all the way ya...加油!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

problem & solution

no appetite, dun feel like eating lunch but my boss ordered for me. ok..

damn cold today... dunnoe y i even feel cold in the office. muz b some idiot turn up the airon la. pengz.

with how things happened recently, n wat ppl said, i am really confused n vex. i really need to ask myself why and how. think i need some time to ponder abt it n come to a conclusion.

maybe i'm really too tired le. maybe i'm juz not suitable to play this game anymore, so y get myself into it knowing it will sooner or later b gameover?

realised i always think too much without solving the problem. this time i muz find a solution to it.

now i wish i can go back to sg faster. suddenly miss a lot of things there... miss the food, my frenz n family, my muffin, romaine, rochelle n reidon, our supper outings, walking ard west coast n labrador park, driving out at nite.... a lot of things la... i even miss those clubbing n drinking session la... aye..

here comes my lunch... time to eat.
多想

我觉得人的心不只一面
任何事都不是绝对
曾因失去他感到痛苦心伤
无爱一身隐约约淡淡的酸

偶尔会想他此刻过的怎样
但这只是随便想想
眼前还有好多事让自己忙
常常忘了身在何方

扑面风一阵气氛不一样
发现季节已经更换
午夜梦回时莫名的彷徨
暗自怀念幸福模样

多想再为某人忙碌和分享
又怕空忙一场
情歌满街淹没人心房
我却没有一个倾吐对象

多想再为某人欢喜和忧伤
却怕旧创又患
爱情这东西拥有了好麻烦
少了又拼命想

Monday, October 29, 2007

out of control?

I muz hav gone crazy yest. went for grocery shopping n bought so much la! over a hundred rmb n breakfast tat can feed my whole family lor! now i am begging my housemates to help me finish my stuff if nt they will all expire soon.

n u noe wat? i went to withdraw 1000rmb yest frm my sg account. i juz sooooooo feel like spending n dun wan to b restricted by the puny amt of $$ i had in my china bank.

n i still cant get any ez-link card after i lost mine! all the stupid stations nt selling them n i hav to queue up everyday to buy la! damn stupid la...

Now i am trying to write my logbook at work, in which nothing constructive comes out. idiotic la...

N u would have guessed it, i am in rather foul mood recently. vex over a few stuff tat happened ard me n as usual, "urs truly" didnt vent it out n used other issues n incident to cover up my unhappiness.

xP
it sux n i shldnt b so over sensitive.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Suzhou fun

Hmmm.... hav been wanting to write abt something but i find it 难以下笔. so i'll juz blog abt wat happened yest.



Went to Suzhou Amusement Park with some of the pudong n puxi ppl, so worried they might not b able to get along but it turned out quite ok. glad abt tat. although i do feel bad tat the puxi ppl nt getting back in time to celebrate the bday for the other puxi guy who didn't go.



We sat abt 5 rides n everything inclusive the admission ticket abt 140rmb. nt tat exp ya. we even played some paintball shooting challenge which is totally nt wat we've expected but i think i managed to hit someone frm abt 30meters away. hhahah.



Then we had this steamboat for bt 30rmb per pax. quite cheap ya... n like quite close la.... ha... madness! i am still dreaming is it?



fun? oh well, ok la nt bad... though feel a little left out. hmmm... nvm....



The gd thing is actually i am getting busy at work recently, time to really STOP sloth-ing n focus on my work ya. n also the planning of the CBS trip, now the status quo might be tipped so better find more ppl to go together. hahhaa... couple trip possible? hahaha.... kidding ya...



Side track abit, life is indeed unfair rite? shan't hav any form of expectation is the best form of remedy. actually i am also a person who expects a lot n hate to feel left out, really something i muz curb ya... shall nt b so overly sensitive also, n dun b so petty n easily will get jealous. wah... so many bad pts i muz change. trying hard.... trying really hard...



独乐乐不如众乐乐. 是吧?

Friday, October 26, 2007

Ok Li Jianghan, time to wake up le... the same mistake shall nt b made again ya?!?!?

Hahaha... in case u all r wondering wat the heck i am talking abt, well, actually i also dunnoe. hahahaha! siao liao...

Btw, i am like super tired. havent had enuff slp since dunnoe when. n it keeps accumulating... need a gd rest somehow.. yup.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Torturous work

Juz finished rushing my latest translation assignment. oh, shld it even b called an assignment, shld b a task more like it. this i wan to complain, my boss actually gave me the work only at 5+pm yest n expect me to give it back to her by 10am today! ok, i was late by about 10mins but i stayed OT till 8 pm yest n rushed it will ard 11+pm yest. gosh, am i tired or wat? well, my fault actually cos i chatted till 1am yest. hhahaha... y they seems to b like endless things to chat everyday??? aiyoh, not **** meh? hahaha...

Hav no mood to work hard recently but seems like my team at work is getting busier! i foresee more OT n last min work being thrown at me. but wat else will i b doing except for translation and formatting of proposal??? now i am so "good" in translation i can do it in record time man... hahaha... but seriously, the kind of work i've produced is getting lousier n lousier.

N since i've got here, i've become lazy! used to b able to b very efficient at work n i nv mind doing OT. gone are the days when i can write press relase, design POP materials, meet the media and arrange for events. seriously, i feel like i've lost my efficiency and the will to strive n work hard! now, i think i've even lost the touch to design anything or do editings for my beloved videos. aye... html, photoshop n adobe premier... what r these man???

Now i'm seriously quite lost to what shld i b doing after i grad frm uni. i feel like resting for a bit ya.. but seems like i do nt hav much time to rest aldy.

岁月不留人啊...

BUT, still looking forward to eat some spore food tml! like super long nv eat liao... ok, think i'll order laksa, prata, otah n maybe chicken rice! follow by ice cream at swenson's! haha.. i'm mad but i dun care... i juz feel like spoiling myself with food n shopping. crossed my fat fingers tat i do nt need to OT tml, if nt my face will really become 包青天!

Monday, October 22, 2007

My boss didnt come to work today, so i spent the entire day (or i plan to spend the entire day) reearching for our dec trip n chatting.

Ok, i've confirmed my return flight to be on the 23rd of dec, when i will go back to the place i'm the most familar with. will b touching down at sg at ard 9pm, n the 1st thing i wanna do: go get some supper!!! hahaah...

and i've been eating so much recently, think i am going to b a big fat pig when i get back. the stupid cold, cold weather really makes ppl get hungry very fast!

Time really passes by very fast, i've been here for 3 mths n toured so many places. spent quite some time yest on the bus pondering abt it, still remember the exact feelings i had when i was on my way to the airport. tons of farewell wishes n phone calls, it rained tat day n i teared as well, for the 1st time in my life, i left a place that i am so used to to experience a new life that is totally a big question mark for me at that time.

Life in Shanghai is still quite not bad, surrounded by friends and received no form of restrain from anyone. no one knows me and i feel i am leading a completely new life. suddenly, i feel so young n happy while hanging out with this bunch of new frenz, who are still so innocent, happy and fun! but life in reality is hard and cruel, soon they'll get to experience the obscurity and mean-ness of life, the feeling of being back-stabbed n betrayed. blah blah... haha...

Nothing lasts forever and i noe sooner or later, it will end. when i get back to sg, it will be another new me, a new life awaits for me and i'm gonna be prepared for it.

It's been a long time since i did this, dunnoe if i can still write it well or nt, lets try ba!

在时光不停流失的年华里,我明了了
人世间的离离合合,离别相聚
又怎能用我微小的双手抓的住?

试问我的沉默,我悠悠的闭上眼
当我撑开双眸,你已远离我而去

再见吧我的小虫,分离总该有个时候
把悲伤的心情收起,不再流泪!

hahhaha... this is absolutely crap! FAIL!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Qian Dao Hu n BACK

Back from the 2D1N trip to Qian Dao Hu. It was kinda rushed trip n once again, we spent more time on the bus than on anything else. Went with 2 other families staying near us n i guess we all had quite a fun time.

Thanks Ben n family for organising the trip. Once again, they took the effort to do something for us. =)

Did sparks fly? no i suppose
Chances coming along? i dun think so
Wrong person at the right time? ya, thats abt it

If only i am a few yrs younger ya... that makes all the difference.

Well, maybe i think too much le... no pt making things more complicated.

I juz realised i need to work tml and tat is such a total DRAG! i am going to try asking for early leave tml, hope my boss will be in good mood.

And i am going to confirm my return flight tml, so if nothing goes wrong, i will be back in SG on dec23rd evening time. sadly, when i reach, the sala gang will b away at bintan for xmas celebration! sob sob...

As promised, i will really start planning for our CBS trip aldy. I used to b the planner for trips n stuff n it seems i really got slack when i am in SH. okok, time to wake up JIANGHAN.. everyone is waiting for ur plan ya...

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Acting busy in progress...

another day in the office, trying to act busy.

n once again, yest's aim to slp early was tarnished. well u noe.. maybe i shld block off certain ppl in my msn so tat i can slp earlier. hahahaahaha!

going to meet my sis-in-law tonite as she's in shanghai for work. got 1 whole bag of stuff to pass to her n she's going to pass me winter clothing as well. feel so bad tat i didnt get her anything yet, but ya, i will make it up to her when i go back in dec.

n oh ya, tml is the day when the east finally meet the west. n i heard some of the east ppl r nt going? so angry! they say only if i dun go then they will go! ok then, i shall nt make my appearance, juz hide in a corner n peep. hahah... ok, think u all will hav no idea wat i am talking abt either.

ok, on a lighter note, at least i've made some close frenz here, worthy to keep in contact after these 6mths in shanghai. hahaha! n i shall continue to enjoy my time here in shanghai n tour as many place as possible. will b going to Qian Dao Hu this weekend but its exp la! 600rmb! y did i agree to go?? haha... looking forward to the changbaishan trip in dec as well but i havent take leave! damn... if last min dun allow me to go how???? i shall use the excuse ms.ong gave me, i got interviews back in sg! hahaaha....

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Family outing... do i still hav a family in SH?

Juz got back frm my fren's supposed family outing at some shanghai outskirts, n i went there acting as my fren's younger sister. hahaha....



had fun? nt really... i was so tired n energy-less.... dunnoe y i feel so sianz la.... aiyah. but still... wanna thank bingxiang, xiaoying, carmen and yanwen for letting us go for their company's family outing! hee...



havent been slping a lot for these few days n it juz keeps accumulating. today i feeel so totally burnt out... super tired!



anyway i've decided nt to think so much liao... been feeling abit low recently..muz b the weather la... so super cold here.... y???? n its only autumn??? gosh... n my skin is soooooo dry! bth...

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Some Beijing photos...

Here r some trip photos i promised to post:





























Juz for fun...

lalalala.... today was quite a gd day i muz say. although we had lessons frm morn till 830pm, i am still feeling energetic even now! havent had enuff slp for these few days, always stayed up till 1am to crap n stuff... haha...

n seems like gd things might b happening soon... i mean, i am nt sure la... maybe oversensitive again... n i wasnt even concentrating on the lesson lor.... damn boring la the lesson! n there will b plenty of chances tat we'll b hanging out together as we've planned a series of activities... gosh, wat an i talking abt? haha

but come to think of it.... for all the factors surrounding the both of us, we r so diff la... in terms of age n religion n thoughts... itz just so different. ya, i noe it wont work out anyway... so ya... juz happy for fun only... ke ke..

Thursday, October 11, 2007

New taggy...

Since many of u have feedback to me that they cant post in my tagboard, i've changed a new one! cool ya? hahaha... ya rite.. feel free to flood it pls, i'll try to update this blog as much as i can. trying to be more hardworking now.. really! bleah...

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Here i am again, my 2nd post in less than 24hours. finally finished my translation work and am slacking here, waiting for time to pass. been feeling kinda lack of energy n tired these few days, muz b the severe lost of slp n the weather.

Shanghai's weather has started to turn cold after Krosa's visit, yest was rather chilling n i didnt prepared enuff clothings... as for my mind, well, has started to develop stupid thoughts again. i dun like this man... i hate to think of my past or the unhappy things. yes, one of my reason for coming to shanghai is actually to escape, or rather to take a break but now, i'm starting to miss home n everything that used to surround me. i know i will b back really soon but i dunnoe y... maybe i am even more scared of going back. haha...

Had some chats yest with some frenz i've made in shanghai, for such a short time we've been together, maybe its the 1st time i really open up. yes, i am complicated, i am secretive, i am a dangerous observer and probably more matured than many of them. but somehow my heart still long to b a young teen or something... when age is catching on to u too fast, it gets esp hard to look back.

I am actually quite glad i came here, although i really hate work n sch, the rest r fun! but well, i promised myself, i need to start gearing up n take charge of my life frm now... jiayou!

IM & BJ

ok peeps, i'm finally back n FINALLY decided to update my blog. oh.. got ppl say my blog too few things so muz blog lor... frankly, i've lost the eagarness to blog aldy. been blogging since like wat? 2004? woah, come to think of it it has been kinda long, dunnoe if the old blog exist anymore. haha...

Yup, regarding my inner mongolia and beijing trip, wat can i say? its fun n i guess everyone of us enjoyed it. went there with 3 other girls n 3 guys, 7 of us had a wild n crazy time n everyone is soooooooooo scandalous! oh my... all these young boys and girls are even more scandalous than ME, the lao da jie! hhahhahaah...

In inner mong, managed to ride on a horse and a camel for the 1st time in my life and catch sunset and sunrise too. not forgetting to mention the super starry night and the meteor that i saw! so excited! it was cold as hell also and the toilets all either dun hav doors or only hav door till the height of my chest. really gd experience la! haha...

As for Beijing, we all spent time visiting all the cultural stuff, Summer palace, Forbidden City, Great Wall and Temple of Heaven. i really like great wall cos its exciting! but all the others r like dying after the trip... hey... i think no kick! shld climb more leh! hahahha...

The biggest accomplishment is i took tons of photos and many of them i really like! yay! can add to my collection aldy. if i am really gd at it, will consider buying a DSLR after i start work. nt a far aim rite?

Not forgetting the fun, nonsnese n laughter i spent with my GIP frenz there... we actually drank 40 bottles of beer in 8 days. gosh! the beer like so freaking cheap la.. RMB2 per bottle.. hello? tat is like 50cents la... so cheap how can dun drink???? of cos a lot of us got drunk n i still cant believe i cant qie that ms.ong during our last nite. gosh! muz b the tibits!

Well, of cos all these werent possible if nt for the HUGE effort put in by ms.ong, who spent hours and days planning, calling, buying tickets and liaising everything for us. so sorry i didnt bring the map and address tat u told me to bring... hai... ren lao le bo bian.. forgetful ah... well, wat can i say other than a big Thank You!

And those over at the lion land, do miss me more ok cos ive been missing u all like hell! haha... heard u all had yan yu during xan's bday celebration. hey! dun leave me out totally ok.... its time for me to look for new target! hhahaha....

Ok, i promise i will post photos if i hav the time... in the mean time, can go look at my friendster for some pix.

until i'm back to sg, miss me ya~